Im popping on to say I hope you all have a happy resurrection day weekend.
I have not posted anything since January other than happy birthdays and such and nobody here seems to have missed me. So I'll fill you in on some things and if anyone wants my cell to text or fb message me, let me know via pm.
A few updates since I did not write a year end Christmas letter...
My son spent a month in japan and loved it. I won't be at all surprised if he ends up living there.
My second child had her second baby and she and her husband are now home owners which was an unexpected blessing for them. A highlight of my week is the day I get to spend with my grand daughter.
John is still performing though often there are days I feel like while he lived through events of 2019, he's lost a lot of memory and words. I pray a lot, feel alone a lot and often feel like he's here physically but I've already lost him in many other ways. Meanwhile, he keeps reaching out to everyone he knows to share any light of Christ he can with as many as he can.
A lot has happened since October when my youngest eloped with a guy she had only known a few months directly following a break up. I have reason to believe there's a lot more to the story and that her new MIL isn't here legally. Eliana has rarely texted since. She swears she didn't trade in her family for another, but that simply does not appear to be true. It hurts like no pain I ever experienced, but I just hope she's alive and finding herself in Christ without our guidance or support.
In addition, our church is in transition since the pastor stepped down. I am so weary of being part of churches going through changes.
I am plugging away at trying to live in a way pleasing to God and honestly often feel like I just don't truly belong anywhere. I gave my life to raise my kiddos and I solely believed I was doing the right thing by homeschooling them but with the events of late, I feel more like I've wasted my life and a failure than anything.
When I do log on to Facebook it doesn't take long before many posts depress me. So, I probably won't be posting much going forward. Instead I'll mostly be hanging out on my blog FB page even though I haven't blogged or written much elsewhere in years since AI stole my writing gigs.
I truly don't want to end sounding depressed, so if you really are interested in keeping in touch with me for whatever reason, I'll be happy to text or message you. I prefer no phone calls though. I did my time on the phone for years, and it's not something I enjoy.
