Welcome to the weekend

So, I am at a crossroads in my life in terms of what do I do now? COVID shut down almost every musical gig for my husband, so I started writing again to pick up some much-needed cash. Writing, however, stresses me out and steals my time away from my family. Maybe it would be different if the pay was better. I don't know.

God has done so many miracles in our lives over this past year, but now we face what is to come.

I started my blog alongside writing as the homeschool examiner and then got accepted to be part of The Old Schoolhouse Review Crew. But, all of that has come to an end or I have moved on. So, do I even need a blog anymore? I know I could live without the comments sometimes.

Our world is upside down lately. It reminds me as if we are living Second Timothy in the Bible. But, I don't dare say my true feelings lest someone jump down my throat or think I really want to know what they think. I don't. At least not if your words are anything but kind.

Words mean a lot to me. They build me up with just a few nice words, but they tear me down quickly with less than kindness.

So, for now I'm not sure where my blog is going or if it is going. I''m not sure what my tomorrow looks like or if I will even see a tomorrow. I've spent time praying about the direction of my life and that of my husband and my children. I just don't have all the answers yet.

I'm tired. I know that much. I'm tired.

I feel like I don't belong anywhere. The more people rant and complain about one thing or another, whether it is legit or pure anger as a knee-jerk reaction to mistreatment, the more I feel like I don't belong anywhere. It seems all of my homeschooling years I have been odd among the odd not quite ever seeing eye to eye with the vast majority of homeschoolers. Even among Christians, though I consider myself to be one, I don't always fit into some of the thinking. And, don't even ask my political opinion, because you won't get an answer. I've never been one to let politics come between me and those I love. Though, please don't tell me that my silence on the matter is violence either. I'm just not a violent person. I love peace. I love being left alone, and I love the sound of the ocean.

So, thanks for listening to my rambles. I just don't know where I'm headed with the blog. So, for now, I'll throw up some wordless pics and call it a day until I regroup and figure it all out or try and fail and try again to see what succeeds.